Happy Turkey Day Homies!

I finally did it. I permed my hair. After numerous months of going natural! My hair grew out but I cut it... in two weeks I will be dying my hair jet black. Yeah I know right.

Remember today to give thanks for everything you have in your life, not everything you wish you had. I give thanks to GOD for my loving family,friends and inspirations. I am thankful for the lessons you have taught me to make me a better woman and overall better person. I am thankful that you allow me to mess up and get knocked down and you continue to walk with me. Thank you....

What are you thankful for??

Congrats Chris!!

Nik.

Seriously

I have to stop cursing. I have noticed that it is becoming a very bad habit. I'm all for making your own defention of what is lady-like but this is not. I sound like a drunken sailor if you let me keep going! Now I can honestly say that I will not completly stop cursing. I'm not going to even lie and say I will. BUT I will try to limit it. It sucks though because fuck is one of my favorite words...

Hey chris...Keithen and I saw a pretty kitten in Kroger parking lot. She was friendly and she wanted me to get her but we didnt know if you would have wanted her... She was black with white mitts and a spot of white on her tail.

Happy Birthday Lorenzo!!

Oh yeah I'm trying to become a freelance writer now...yeah.

Nik

Guess what I'm doing on Monday? Going to the YMCA and doing a workout. Yeah I know right. Honestly I want my body to be toned and I need to stop being such a lazy ass. Legs, arms, stomach all over.

I decided im going to try and hold off on getting a perm. Now I'm washing my hair 2-3 times a week. Its been going out but knowing me im going to chop it off again. Still thinking about the weave. More than likely it will stop and my shoulders with the ends curled...maybe.

No more Lush until 2009. No more bath stuff until I move... to Chicago. I have too much. So Chris or Brit if you want or need anything...I got ya.

Have yall been watching The Real Housewives of Atlanta? The season finale is Tuesday so watch it. I love Lisa. She is not living off her husband's money. She is living her and their money. NeNe is something else. Sometimes a little too much but at least you know she will always tell you how she feels. Kim..seriously I wanna slap her. She honestly thinks she is ish. You do need to know the ABC's of music to be a singer! And cat is spelled C-A-T
not K-A-T! Deshawn is such a sweetheart but sometimes I feel like that make her out to be a pushover. Sheree...I liked her until that stunt her and Kim pulled on deshawn. Sorry but I was laughing when I saw those jacked up samples!! You DON'T wait to the day before to get your samples. That just opens the doors for something bad to happen...

Congrats Obama Our 1st Bi-Racial President. We can't take full claim of him black people. He wants to make up one nation so stop acting like yall are better than any other skin color. We were all made by the same God. Don't do the same to others that you don't like them to do to you.

Nik

Vote

So I did it. I voted. I stood in line for a good 30 seconds. Dead for real. When I went in there was NO line. And I went around 12 something. I felt so proud of myself for refusing to let this moment pass me by. I have friends who JUST realized TODAY how important this is. They tried to register and vote today. I'm not sure of the outcome but hey.... We still have a bunch of hours until 7pm so get ya asses to them polls. If not for you then the people who cant vote. 

Hopefully I will get out my night class earlier enough to see the results. 

Oh yeah I have a offically date for my moving day--->June 21st 2009. Two days after the Mr and I's b-day so you know we going out with a bang! 

Ummm thats it. And Chris I feel you about those teachers! I have teacher who dont even like what she teaching! So how the f'k am I suppose to like it? Bet you wish we still had teachers like Mrs.Worlds huh?!?

I have a headache

So I just dropped my class. My dean offered another drawing class I can take but I'm not sure about taking it. Why? Because it will be one less day I will be available to work. You know what? i'm taking it. My job will understand.

Nik.

School is a bust...

I'm dropping my drawing class. I'm not going to be able to complete the class since I missed 2 classes and midterm is next week. So my dear drawing class.....I will see you in the spring. Now I can stop carrying that heavy ass drawing bag.

Make sure you vote on November 4 or if you aren't a lazy ass like me try to vote early before October 31. Be the change you want to see in this world. Don't sit on your ass and expect something to happen. MAKE something happen!
Honestly I don't care about who you vote for just vote people. Its not a black or white thing. Its about who you think will make the most effective changes that benfits EVERYONE.

I feel like im in between a wall and wall. Everything just seems so bland and boring. Nobody is doing anything. No birthdays. No clubbing. Damn chris its all your fault!

Hey Lily Pad(that's you dewayne)!!(We should do some dance comps!!)

I have been feeling in a really dull mood lately. I just feel like I'm doing the same things over and over. Things at the job are pretty much the same(Except we got new christmas products come check them out!),household is pretty much the same(still needs adjusting), and money is still the same(almost invisble). School has gotten a liitle better its only one problem....I think I picked the wrong major. I love fashion and all and I still want my own clothing line but I have fallen in love with graphic design....Maybe I will wait to switch after I move to chicago.

Guess what I thought about getting?!? Weave. I have not worn weave since my senior year of high school. Something new...What you think?

HaHa Larry Davis gave the po's a run for their money!

Nik

No one of the corner got swagga like us.

So I decided to wear my one and only scarf. Its medium blue with black skulls. Its cute. It keeps making me want more...

Man its fucking cold in the A! Maybe its because its still early in the morning but its still fucking cold. Time to by some boots(I need some flat ones), some mittens, earmuffs and damn socks! I swear I don't own any socks and if I do I don't know where the hell they are.

Oh yeah I need some sneaks. Please donate money to my cold ass feet need sneakers fund. I accept cash,usps money orders,credit cards, food stamps and paypal. No checks. I don't know you like that.

FSF won't like me sign in from my sidekick,

Nik

I'll bust ya windows out ya car

Okay so Im at Lenox Square Mall and its crowded like a mother fucker! All these damn people here trying to see a damn celeb or trying to be seen them damn selves. All there damn girls in these sky high heels, multi-color hair and too little clothes trying to find a "ballers". What trips me out is all there females trying to act like they be in lenox all the time. I work here EVERY weekend and I never see any of yall. I guess I can blame it on the hip hop awards. Whatev. This chick was just standing in front of me and I really wanted to find her some damn clothes to put on. She had a sheer top and some shiny leggings. Okay ladies, leggings can be worn in place of pants. But if you have a Georgia Girl Booty, wear a shirt that at least covers HALF of it. It just makes you look cheap and tacky. Yeah guys are hollering at you but its because you look easy as fuck.

I can admit I saw some really cute fashion statement like this girl's shirt that read "No More BushAss Ness." Saw lots of hot scarves combos and a lot of sexy heels. Time for me to step my fall/winter game up.

My fucking hair is getting on my nerves. I have been trying to go the natural route but fuck that shit. I'm bout to get it permed and two weeks after that, Im getting dyed jet black. Yeah I know I always bitched about my hair being jet black but I think with my "growing up" its hot.

Fuck yo couch,

Nik

My fucking nails bed suck

Oh yeah that no cursing thing went out the wondow. So did that fucking detox.

If this girl next to me don't stop eating them loud ass chips I punching her in her throat.

Thinking of getting my bottom lip pierced. Got a problem with it? Umm tell the ones who cares cause it aint me homie.This woman came in my job and she had the hoop piercing and I talked to her about it. She said I had the face to carry it so...yeah bitches.

I feel like such a fucking lame because I have not bought T.I. Paper Trail. But I did register to vote.
Obama for real change. Last time I looked I don't make 250,000+ so your tax cuts and other McCain don't work me. So yeah homie kick hella rocks. Its only going to get worse before it gets better. Get ready. Fight for your right to vote. To those who didn't register to vote and you had the right to...Don't get mad if the emocomy goes mad because you didn't do the simple thing to make it better. Don't complain about a resscion,gas prices,milk prices, and other shit that man in the white house messed up.

Was anybody else shock about what happened with Danity Kane? I love them and I was crying. I could tell some stuff was going on from pictures of all them out and only 2 will be together. Diddy better get his shit together cause Im not trying to have another Da Band.

Fuck yo couch,
Nik.

Gas is $3.55....

And I'm still not driving. Money Saving-yes. Annoying-hell yeah. Today is a better than the other but not better than the first. Woke up this morning sick(sore thoat,stuffy nose, and massive headache). Feel a little better now. Finally took some meds for it. The doggies are back home(Swag and the other one...). Swag is behaving better but he is still annoying. But so is his co-owner so hey. Maybe tomorrow will be better....

Lately I have been feeling like a sad version of myself. Depressed? Nope. I don't know exactly what to call it. Tired of bullshit? Hell yeah. I feel like the things I want to get better are not. Drained? Of course. I stood there yesterday and cried because I felt like it was nothing else I could do. I felt I was giving up. That's not something I do. But it just felt so right. What do you do then? I can't fix it. So my other half is going to take that load.

I'm tired yall. In the worse way.

Nik.

1:20pm and I'm still in the bed

So the Mr. "put together" the bed last night and I have not been out of it since.(Well except to lock the front door and to pee). I plan on putting on clothes and running(walking/jogging) the trail in my complex.My diet(detox) has been alright. I had a ...nevermind. 1st day of fall classes start today. Yay.

Off to be productive...

Nik

Told ya I will do it...

So I told Brit I will do so...

Fuck Jay.

Nuff Said.

Men running out on their kids New Trend

Seriously is every female under 22 either carrying a bun in the oven or carrying a baby in their arms. There is no disrespect to those who take the blessings GOD gives them. It just kills me sometimes. What also kills me is 98 percent of the time I see them alone. Where the hell is the other half that helped that blessing? Now I will admit. There are men that will hold themselves as men and help nuture and support that seed and the woman that helped carry it. Then there are boys who act like the dogs their sexual counterparts call them. The ones who lay down and do the grown up act then resort to their childlike habits and act like they never want to go up. Do they not realize the effect that causes on the seed? To not grow up with a father? I see it all the times. On the faces of the Baby Mommas who have play mother and father. I see it on the faces of sons who act out because there is no MAN there to teach them to behave and act like a gentleman. I see on the faces on girls who look for love from any guy who will give her the time of day because there was no man to tell her she was beautiful inside and out and she doesn't need a man to make her feel complete. The ones who take their place next the mother, thank you. The others.....Hell has no fury like a woman scored.

Love you too chica.

Nik

Grandma be jammin!

So I was on the train last night and there was this older woma sitting in front of me. Noticed she was listening to a ipod. I thought even older people be jammin. After awhile she turns arounds and heads me her ipod and says "listen to this.". So I put my headphones in and listen...she was jammin! I can't remember now but it was some song by Kanye! Then she says "Grandma be jammin huh?" I'll be damn!

The Mr. and I are planning a huge step in June which is moving to the Chi. Are we ready? Hell no. Anyway he is offically moving back in this weekend. We will see...And he is bringing both of the dogs! (Swag I love but the other one...)

That tattoo on my foot has got to go! That damn star is too big and I want a smaller one. I am thinking about getting the word Love somewhere on me but I'm not sure yet.(Kiss ass Brit)

I wish this chick on this train will stop staring at me. Seriously if her eyes were laser beams, I will be 6feet under.

Oh yeah I only have one more smoke left in my pack. After this one, I'm Done.

I'm not stopping until my team sign their name on that black card. -Lil Kim Last Day

Hey Carla!
Nik

So after 28th I will no longer working two jobs. I'm happy but I'm wondering how things will be without the extra cash...So I got promoted today at my 1st job and a pay raise. Wonderful!

On October 5th 2008, I will be starting my 1st diet. No I won't be starving myself(too lazy for that) but I will be watching what I eat. No more Mickey D unless its fruit or a salad(wait on it).Their fries are fucking addictive. I feel like they are selling me crack! I that's guess why the Mr. calls them "crack fries". Also no Wendys. Seriously their fries are nasty and I am tired of them throwing my damn Baconator together any kind of way. Seriously it does not take that long to make a well together burger. Bitches. Also I will try not to eat after 950pm. Unless Im going out with friends or with the Mr. Or Chris,Flower, Jazs,Brit or I just left the club at 3,4,5,or 6 and we need to sober up.(That includes you too Bee! Bring yo ass!) In addition to my "diet" I will also be working out. Mostly gym work with some dance class thrown in. I.m not trying to lose some serious weight cause I want to perfectly fit into skinny jeans and look good in leggings. Naw I'm doing this for me and because I want to be healthy and tone everything. But that booty ain't going nowhere(You are lucky Mr.). But it will be more toned. Plus I wanna start back running. I guess the Olympics had something to do with it. Gotta get my running skills back up.

Oh yeah Im still smoking but I'm about to quit...sometime soon.

I hear ya calling me Chi. I'm coming.



Nik.

Quote....

Im a educated black woman and their worst nightmare.