New Years Ish

Normally I dont make New Years goals because I start them and quit or forget about them.Well not 09 Baby!
New Years Aims...

Learn to manage my money better-I randomly spend too much. Spending 200 on beauty products a month is crazy! I have bigger and better things planned for 09 so I cant be broke trying to do them!

Get my eating habits on track-I eat fast food too much. I guess its my addiction to fries! Im not saying that I will stop but I will create other altenatives like cooking at home.

Start ACTUALLY working on my body-Im not trying to lose all this kind of weight or anything. I want my body to be healthy, active and toned.

Take better care of my skin and hair-With all of the stuff going on with my daily I tend to neglect my hair and skin.

Say how I really feel when something gets to me-Sometimes I hold my mouth because I dont wanna always come off as rude but its startin to take a toll on me.

Do community service-I honestly want to help out my community, I can't continue to see people in need and not help. I have been thinking about helping with a battered women shelter. Also doing some walks and helping out at the baby ward at some hospitals as well as giving time to the termailly ill at the hospital. I have also signed up to be a big sister. I can't wait!

Build my G.P.A back up-My last quarter killed my G.P.A. So it my goal before I transfer to get back to working hard and hitting those books to get that G.P.A. up!

Dress up my look-I want to experiment with different types of clothing styles. You can't knock it until you try it!

Learn to have more patience for people and FULLY think before I express myself-Tired of pulling my foot out my mouth.

I feel all of these will make a better me
Nikita

Hmmm.

I'm not ready. But I will be.

Nik

Words unheard became Heard

Sometimes GOD puts you in certain place so you can be then when something happens. Why? So you can either see or hear it. Its what you needed at the time.That's how I feel right now. He put me there on Tuesday to hear those words I needed to hear. He knows I have been sad over it and I needed to hear those words. He was speaking to me. And I was listening.

I was listening.

Nik.

6 Heartbeats

How I define friends?
Those that you can call on no matter how small or big. The ones that allow you trip but don't allow you to fall. Those that support and believe in you even when you don't believe in yourself. Those that love you despite your past. Those that care enough about you to not allow you to damage yourself.

Thanks loves....

Chris-My pusher
Jazs-My comic relief
Carrisa-My inspiration
Brit-My mirror....

Walt-My life tutor
Steel-My Conformation

Nik

To whom it may concern,

You can keep hitting me, I refuse to get knocked out. I may fall but believe I'm getting back up. Back me into a corner and I can promise you I will always come out swinging and winning. I will not let you get to me and control my emotions and actions. Naw homie. If anybody is going to bring me down its going to be no one. Yeah you heard me. No one. You mad cause I stay in your mind and you wanna knock me off my high. Well get ready to feel that for a lifetime because I will continue to make you feel that way.

Living My Life,
Nikita"Nik" Brown

Live ya Life

I am done with school till Jan 12. During these 10 weeks(9 for me) I have dropped 3 classes and picked up none. So at the end of this quarter I will walk away with only completing 1 class. In all honestly I don't feel bad. I really didn't feel like taking those classes. Oh well.

Thinking of changing my major again.
No longer sure what I want to do. I still wanna own my fashion line but not sure if I want to attend school for it. Thinking of doing journalism or public relations or something. What do yall think? You know me, what do you think I am good at?

I worried that I'm becoming girly. Shocker right? One reason I think this? I got my nails done. Full set. French manicure. Reason number two? I am thinking about wearing makeup. OMGoodness! I have not worn makeup since 12th grade Dancing Dolls. Hmmm. Whatev.

Chicago is calling me but Atlanta is pulling me. Nuff said.

Starting my online bath and candle store Feb 15 2009. Got any name ideas?

Ma said speak once but think twice-Lil Mama A Millie

Dang Snow Fairy

I just checked out 3rdtwin blog and I realized I have to tell 7 random things about me. Well I'm cooler than most so I will give 7 things about 7...things!

7 things that annoy me
1.Bad Liars-If you are come to me with a lie, come correct.
2. Great sales with no money
3.People who expect you to pay all the time.
4.Spoiled grown men/women
5.My promise to no longer smoke.
6. Slow ass sidekicks
7.People who TRY to bring me down.

7 people who inspire me
1-Mom
2.Christa
3.Carrisa
4.Obama
5.Dawn(Danity Kane)
6.Grandmother(Rest In Paradise)
7.Dad(Rest in Paradise)

7 things that make me happy
1.Text messages
2.Cards
3.Flowers for no reason
4.Sexy ass shades
5.Creating a dance
6. Sunny and windy days
7. Checking things off my to-do list

7 celebs that are killing it right now
1.Keri Hilson
2.Solange
3.Rihanna
4.Dawn
5.Lil Wanye
6.Kanye West
7.Pharell-Spazz Out!

7 things you may/may not know about me

1.I want to do EVERYTHING and don't want to realize I can't.
2.I truly miss my family.
3.I don't take myself too seriously. I laugh at myself all the time.
4.As long you try, you will always have my respect.
5. Day 26 is one of my fav groups.
6. I don't regret that I didn't graduate high school. Only that my mom didn't see my walk.
7.Fashion isn't as big to me as it use to be.

7 favorite foods
1.Hot wings
2.Papa johns
3.Hot dogs with baked beans
4.My chilli
5.Plain chips with vanilla ice cream
6.Popcorn shrimp
7.Ham with yam sauce

7 songs that's been on replay on my ipod
1.Exclusive-Day 26
2.Live Your Life-T.I./Rihanna
3.Turning Me On-Keri Hilson/Lil Wanye
4.Chanpange Chronic Nightcap-Solange/Lil Wanye
5.Hollywood-The Carters
6.Bad Girl-Danity Kane
7.Right Here-Brandy

Happy Turkey Day Homies!

I finally did it. I permed my hair. After numerous months of going natural! My hair grew out but I cut it... in two weeks I will be dying my hair jet black. Yeah I know right.

Remember today to give thanks for everything you have in your life, not everything you wish you had. I give thanks to GOD for my loving family,friends and inspirations. I am thankful for the lessons you have taught me to make me a better woman and overall better person. I am thankful that you allow me to mess up and get knocked down and you continue to walk with me. Thank you....

What are you thankful for??

Congrats Chris!!

Nik.

Seriously

I have to stop cursing. I have noticed that it is becoming a very bad habit. I'm all for making your own defention of what is lady-like but this is not. I sound like a drunken sailor if you let me keep going! Now I can honestly say that I will not completly stop cursing. I'm not going to even lie and say I will. BUT I will try to limit it. It sucks though because fuck is one of my favorite words...

Hey chris...Keithen and I saw a pretty kitten in Kroger parking lot. She was friendly and she wanted me to get her but we didnt know if you would have wanted her... She was black with white mitts and a spot of white on her tail.

Happy Birthday Lorenzo!!

Oh yeah I'm trying to become a freelance writer now...yeah.

Nik

Guess what I'm doing on Monday? Going to the YMCA and doing a workout. Yeah I know right. Honestly I want my body to be toned and I need to stop being such a lazy ass. Legs, arms, stomach all over.

I decided im going to try and hold off on getting a perm. Now I'm washing my hair 2-3 times a week. Its been going out but knowing me im going to chop it off again. Still thinking about the weave. More than likely it will stop and my shoulders with the ends curled...maybe.

No more Lush until 2009. No more bath stuff until I move... to Chicago. I have too much. So Chris or Brit if you want or need anything...I got ya.

Have yall been watching The Real Housewives of Atlanta? The season finale is Tuesday so watch it. I love Lisa. She is not living off her husband's money. She is living her and their money. NeNe is something else. Sometimes a little too much but at least you know she will always tell you how she feels. Kim..seriously I wanna slap her. She honestly thinks she is ish. You do need to know the ABC's of music to be a singer! And cat is spelled C-A-T
not K-A-T! Deshawn is such a sweetheart but sometimes I feel like that make her out to be a pushover. Sheree...I liked her until that stunt her and Kim pulled on deshawn. Sorry but I was laughing when I saw those jacked up samples!! You DON'T wait to the day before to get your samples. That just opens the doors for something bad to happen...

Congrats Obama Our 1st Bi-Racial President. We can't take full claim of him black people. He wants to make up one nation so stop acting like yall are better than any other skin color. We were all made by the same God. Don't do the same to others that you don't like them to do to you.

Nik

Vote

So I did it. I voted. I stood in line for a good 30 seconds. Dead for real. When I went in there was NO line. And I went around 12 something. I felt so proud of myself for refusing to let this moment pass me by. I have friends who JUST realized TODAY how important this is. They tried to register and vote today. I'm not sure of the outcome but hey.... We still have a bunch of hours until 7pm so get ya asses to them polls. If not for you then the people who cant vote. 

Hopefully I will get out my night class earlier enough to see the results. 

Oh yeah I have a offically date for my moving day--->June 21st 2009. Two days after the Mr and I's b-day so you know we going out with a bang! 

Ummm thats it. And Chris I feel you about those teachers! I have teacher who dont even like what she teaching! So how the f'k am I suppose to like it? Bet you wish we still had teachers like Mrs.Worlds huh?!?

I have a headache

So I just dropped my class. My dean offered another drawing class I can take but I'm not sure about taking it. Why? Because it will be one less day I will be available to work. You know what? i'm taking it. My job will understand.

Nik.

School is a bust...

I'm dropping my drawing class. I'm not going to be able to complete the class since I missed 2 classes and midterm is next week. So my dear drawing class.....I will see you in the spring. Now I can stop carrying that heavy ass drawing bag.

Make sure you vote on November 4 or if you aren't a lazy ass like me try to vote early before October 31. Be the change you want to see in this world. Don't sit on your ass and expect something to happen. MAKE something happen!
Honestly I don't care about who you vote for just vote people. Its not a black or white thing. Its about who you think will make the most effective changes that benfits EVERYONE.

I feel like im in between a wall and wall. Everything just seems so bland and boring. Nobody is doing anything. No birthdays. No clubbing. Damn chris its all your fault!

Hey Lily Pad(that's you dewayne)!!(We should do some dance comps!!)

I have been feeling in a really dull mood lately. I just feel like I'm doing the same things over and over. Things at the job are pretty much the same(Except we got new christmas products come check them out!),household is pretty much the same(still needs adjusting), and money is still the same(almost invisble). School has gotten a liitle better its only one problem....I think I picked the wrong major. I love fashion and all and I still want my own clothing line but I have fallen in love with graphic design....Maybe I will wait to switch after I move to chicago.

Guess what I thought about getting?!? Weave. I have not worn weave since my senior year of high school. Something new...What you think?

HaHa Larry Davis gave the po's a run for their money!

Nik

No one of the corner got swagga like us.

So I decided to wear my one and only scarf. Its medium blue with black skulls. Its cute. It keeps making me want more...

Man its fucking cold in the A! Maybe its because its still early in the morning but its still fucking cold. Time to by some boots(I need some flat ones), some mittens, earmuffs and damn socks! I swear I don't own any socks and if I do I don't know where the hell they are.

Oh yeah I need some sneaks. Please donate money to my cold ass feet need sneakers fund. I accept cash,usps money orders,credit cards, food stamps and paypal. No checks. I don't know you like that.

FSF won't like me sign in from my sidekick,

Nik

I'll bust ya windows out ya car

Okay so Im at Lenox Square Mall and its crowded like a mother fucker! All these damn people here trying to see a damn celeb or trying to be seen them damn selves. All there damn girls in these sky high heels, multi-color hair and too little clothes trying to find a "ballers". What trips me out is all there females trying to act like they be in lenox all the time. I work here EVERY weekend and I never see any of yall. I guess I can blame it on the hip hop awards. Whatev. This chick was just standing in front of me and I really wanted to find her some damn clothes to put on. She had a sheer top and some shiny leggings. Okay ladies, leggings can be worn in place of pants. But if you have a Georgia Girl Booty, wear a shirt that at least covers HALF of it. It just makes you look cheap and tacky. Yeah guys are hollering at you but its because you look easy as fuck.

I can admit I saw some really cute fashion statement like this girl's shirt that read "No More BushAss Ness." Saw lots of hot scarves combos and a lot of sexy heels. Time for me to step my fall/winter game up.

My fucking hair is getting on my nerves. I have been trying to go the natural route but fuck that shit. I'm bout to get it permed and two weeks after that, Im getting dyed jet black. Yeah I know I always bitched about my hair being jet black but I think with my "growing up" its hot.

Fuck yo couch,

Nik

My fucking nails bed suck

Oh yeah that no cursing thing went out the wondow. So did that fucking detox.

If this girl next to me don't stop eating them loud ass chips I punching her in her throat.

Thinking of getting my bottom lip pierced. Got a problem with it? Umm tell the ones who cares cause it aint me homie.This woman came in my job and she had the hoop piercing and I talked to her about it. She said I had the face to carry it so...yeah bitches.

I feel like such a fucking lame because I have not bought T.I. Paper Trail. But I did register to vote.
Obama for real change. Last time I looked I don't make 250,000+ so your tax cuts and other McCain don't work me. So yeah homie kick hella rocks. Its only going to get worse before it gets better. Get ready. Fight for your right to vote. To those who didn't register to vote and you had the right to...Don't get mad if the emocomy goes mad because you didn't do the simple thing to make it better. Don't complain about a resscion,gas prices,milk prices, and other shit that man in the white house messed up.

Was anybody else shock about what happened with Danity Kane? I love them and I was crying. I could tell some stuff was going on from pictures of all them out and only 2 will be together. Diddy better get his shit together cause Im not trying to have another Da Band.

Fuck yo couch,
Nik.

Gas is $3.55....

And I'm still not driving. Money Saving-yes. Annoying-hell yeah. Today is a better than the other but not better than the first. Woke up this morning sick(sore thoat,stuffy nose, and massive headache). Feel a little better now. Finally took some meds for it. The doggies are back home(Swag and the other one...). Swag is behaving better but he is still annoying. But so is his co-owner so hey. Maybe tomorrow will be better....

Lately I have been feeling like a sad version of myself. Depressed? Nope. I don't know exactly what to call it. Tired of bullshit? Hell yeah. I feel like the things I want to get better are not. Drained? Of course. I stood there yesterday and cried because I felt like it was nothing else I could do. I felt I was giving up. That's not something I do. But it just felt so right. What do you do then? I can't fix it. So my other half is going to take that load.

I'm tired yall. In the worse way.

Nik.