Locking It In!

Yeah I stole that quote from diddy and it works for me right now. Been slacking Back at it Nuff said Ha

Loving me

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and, at times, hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Ms.Monroe

-Directed to everyone who comes into my life and makes plans to stay. I'm not perfect but I am worth being in your life and worth the effort,time and work that is takes to keep me there.

"Everything I'm not make me everything I am" Mr.West

-I wont try to be her nor will I try to destory her. I will take that time to make a better me and make me and the one above happy. Chasing some one else life and trying to make it mine is a waste of the life I was given. I love the woman in the mirror so replacing her to become a copy isnt going to work when the orginal is its own materpiece.

Making time for me

Lately I have been seriously lacking on taking care of things for ME. So I decided for my birthday(June 19) I have am going to take time for me and reflect. Before my birthday I am going to clean and organize my room and buy a new bed so I can finally come home to a comfortable room and the weekend of my birthday I am going to go to a spa with my cell phone off and a clear mind. No texting, No facebook, no twitter nothing. I want some me time!

Oh yeah my birthday is coming!!! Geminis Stand Up!

Damn Since April?!?

Yeah I know I'm always doing this...Updates on my life with promises that I will get back on
my blogging. Well I forgot about this blog(kinda) and I didnt really have anything I felt was
worth saying. Until now.
Life for me has been different to say the least. I am newly single and not even claiming it. I guess I just wanna be with me so you can say I am in a relationship with Nikita and I am very happy.
The Mister and I are still friends so its no bad blood there. Moving from that...AiA is such a
DB(Douche Bag)! Nuff said.. Finally picked a major that I can be happy with. Also decided that
when I graduate that I will join the military. When I sign those papers I will let you know which
one. My healthy hair journey has been going good. I am learning a lot about my hair and
I love seeing my natural hair come through. This summer I will be protecting from my blow
dryer and flat iron so I will be rocking bantu-knot outs, wigs, weaves, braids etc. I feel very
free and confident when I wear my hair curly! I have decided to tranistion for a year to allow by hair to grow and after my year is up it is all natural for me baby! I have been getting back on
my writing game finally. I am proud of the poems I have written lately which means I am
getting better. I want perform this year(hopefully this summer) at a spoken word night. I have
also thought about doing some songwriting. Yeah I think I will. I fyou think I have forgot about
fashion you're crazy as hell. I have been working on it and I am excited for the ideas I have and
cant wait to show them to the word. Wont give any details because I normally change my mind
when it comes to things that have my name on it. I have come in contact with my family and I
feel othing but love in my heart. Being around them after nine years made me feel like I was
home. Now I see where my looks come from and where some of my personality comes from.
I will never stray away from my family and that a promise that will never be broken.

Overall I'm loving life and just trying to enjoy everyday with love, understanding and openess
in my heart. I got tired of carrying a heavy heart filled with anger, hurt and sadness. So I
dropped the load off and kept on stepping. Hope it didnt get recycled...

Nikita