New Years Ish

Normally I dont make New Years goals because I start them and quit or forget about them.Well not 09 Baby!
New Years Aims...

Learn to manage my money better-I randomly spend too much. Spending 200 on beauty products a month is crazy! I have bigger and better things planned for 09 so I cant be broke trying to do them!

Get my eating habits on track-I eat fast food too much. I guess its my addiction to fries! Im not saying that I will stop but I will create other altenatives like cooking at home.

Start ACTUALLY working on my body-Im not trying to lose all this kind of weight or anything. I want my body to be healthy, active and toned.

Take better care of my skin and hair-With all of the stuff going on with my daily I tend to neglect my hair and skin.

Say how I really feel when something gets to me-Sometimes I hold my mouth because I dont wanna always come off as rude but its startin to take a toll on me.

Do community service-I honestly want to help out my community, I can't continue to see people in need and not help. I have been thinking about helping with a battered women shelter. Also doing some walks and helping out at the baby ward at some hospitals as well as giving time to the termailly ill at the hospital. I have also signed up to be a big sister. I can't wait!

Build my G.P.A back up-My last quarter killed my G.P.A. So it my goal before I transfer to get back to working hard and hitting those books to get that G.P.A. up!

Dress up my look-I want to experiment with different types of clothing styles. You can't knock it until you try it!

Learn to have more patience for people and FULLY think before I express myself-Tired of pulling my foot out my mouth.

I feel all of these will make a better me
Nikita

Hmmm.

I'm not ready. But I will be.

Nik

Words unheard became Heard

Sometimes GOD puts you in certain place so you can be then when something happens. Why? So you can either see or hear it. Its what you needed at the time.That's how I feel right now. He put me there on Tuesday to hear those words I needed to hear. He knows I have been sad over it and I needed to hear those words. He was speaking to me. And I was listening.

I was listening.

Nik.

6 Heartbeats

How I define friends?
Those that you can call on no matter how small or big. The ones that allow you trip but don't allow you to fall. Those that support and believe in you even when you don't believe in yourself. Those that love you despite your past. Those that care enough about you to not allow you to damage yourself.

Thanks loves....

Chris-My pusher
Jazs-My comic relief
Carrisa-My inspiration
Brit-My mirror....

Walt-My life tutor
Steel-My Conformation

Nik

To whom it may concern,

You can keep hitting me, I refuse to get knocked out. I may fall but believe I'm getting back up. Back me into a corner and I can promise you I will always come out swinging and winning. I will not let you get to me and control my emotions and actions. Naw homie. If anybody is going to bring me down its going to be no one. Yeah you heard me. No one. You mad cause I stay in your mind and you wanna knock me off my high. Well get ready to feel that for a lifetime because I will continue to make you feel that way.

Living My Life,
Nikita"Nik" Brown

Live ya Life

I am done with school till Jan 12. During these 10 weeks(9 for me) I have dropped 3 classes and picked up none. So at the end of this quarter I will walk away with only completing 1 class. In all honestly I don't feel bad. I really didn't feel like taking those classes. Oh well.

Thinking of changing my major again.
No longer sure what I want to do. I still wanna own my fashion line but not sure if I want to attend school for it. Thinking of doing journalism or public relations or something. What do yall think? You know me, what do you think I am good at?

I worried that I'm becoming girly. Shocker right? One reason I think this? I got my nails done. Full set. French manicure. Reason number two? I am thinking about wearing makeup. OMGoodness! I have not worn makeup since 12th grade Dancing Dolls. Hmmm. Whatev.

Chicago is calling me but Atlanta is pulling me. Nuff said.

Starting my online bath and candle store Feb 15 2009. Got any name ideas?

Ma said speak once but think twice-Lil Mama A Millie

Dang Snow Fairy

I just checked out 3rdtwin blog and I realized I have to tell 7 random things about me. Well I'm cooler than most so I will give 7 things about 7...things!

7 things that annoy me
1.Bad Liars-If you are come to me with a lie, come correct.
2. Great sales with no money
3.People who expect you to pay all the time.
4.Spoiled grown men/women
5.My promise to no longer smoke.
6. Slow ass sidekicks
7.People who TRY to bring me down.

7 people who inspire me
1-Mom
2.Christa
3.Carrisa
4.Obama
5.Dawn(Danity Kane)
6.Grandmother(Rest In Paradise)
7.Dad(Rest in Paradise)

7 things that make me happy
1.Text messages
2.Cards
3.Flowers for no reason
4.Sexy ass shades
5.Creating a dance
6. Sunny and windy days
7. Checking things off my to-do list

7 celebs that are killing it right now
1.Keri Hilson
2.Solange
3.Rihanna
4.Dawn
5.Lil Wanye
6.Kanye West
7.Pharell-Spazz Out!

7 things you may/may not know about me

1.I want to do EVERYTHING and don't want to realize I can't.
2.I truly miss my family.
3.I don't take myself too seriously. I laugh at myself all the time.
4.As long you try, you will always have my respect.
5. Day 26 is one of my fav groups.
6. I don't regret that I didn't graduate high school. Only that my mom didn't see my walk.
7.Fashion isn't as big to me as it use to be.

7 favorite foods
1.Hot wings
2.Papa johns
3.Hot dogs with baked beans
4.My chilli
5.Plain chips with vanilla ice cream
6.Popcorn shrimp
7.Ham with yam sauce

7 songs that's been on replay on my ipod
1.Exclusive-Day 26
2.Live Your Life-T.I./Rihanna
3.Turning Me On-Keri Hilson/Lil Wanye
4.Chanpange Chronic Nightcap-Solange/Lil Wanye
5.Hollywood-The Carters
6.Bad Girl-Danity Kane
7.Right Here-Brandy

Happy Turkey Day Homies!

I finally did it. I permed my hair. After numerous months of going natural! My hair grew out but I cut it... in two weeks I will be dying my hair jet black. Yeah I know right.

Remember today to give thanks for everything you have in your life, not everything you wish you had. I give thanks to GOD for my loving family,friends and inspirations. I am thankful for the lessons you have taught me to make me a better woman and overall better person. I am thankful that you allow me to mess up and get knocked down and you continue to walk with me. Thank you....

What are you thankful for??

Congrats Chris!!

Nik.

Seriously

I have to stop cursing. I have noticed that it is becoming a very bad habit. I'm all for making your own defention of what is lady-like but this is not. I sound like a drunken sailor if you let me keep going! Now I can honestly say that I will not completly stop cursing. I'm not going to even lie and say I will. BUT I will try to limit it. It sucks though because fuck is one of my favorite words...

Hey chris...Keithen and I saw a pretty kitten in Kroger parking lot. She was friendly and she wanted me to get her but we didnt know if you would have wanted her... She was black with white mitts and a spot of white on her tail.

Happy Birthday Lorenzo!!

Oh yeah I'm trying to become a freelance writer now...yeah.

Nik

Guess what I'm doing on Monday? Going to the YMCA and doing a workout. Yeah I know right. Honestly I want my body to be toned and I need to stop being such a lazy ass. Legs, arms, stomach all over.

I decided im going to try and hold off on getting a perm. Now I'm washing my hair 2-3 times a week. Its been going out but knowing me im going to chop it off again. Still thinking about the weave. More than likely it will stop and my shoulders with the ends curled...maybe.

No more Lush until 2009. No more bath stuff until I move... to Chicago. I have too much. So Chris or Brit if you want or need anything...I got ya.

Have yall been watching The Real Housewives of Atlanta? The season finale is Tuesday so watch it. I love Lisa. She is not living off her husband's money. She is living her and their money. NeNe is something else. Sometimes a little too much but at least you know she will always tell you how she feels. Kim..seriously I wanna slap her. She honestly thinks she is ish. You do need to know the ABC's of music to be a singer! And cat is spelled C-A-T
not K-A-T! Deshawn is such a sweetheart but sometimes I feel like that make her out to be a pushover. Sheree...I liked her until that stunt her and Kim pulled on deshawn. Sorry but I was laughing when I saw those jacked up samples!! You DON'T wait to the day before to get your samples. That just opens the doors for something bad to happen...

Congrats Obama Our 1st Bi-Racial President. We can't take full claim of him black people. He wants to make up one nation so stop acting like yall are better than any other skin color. We were all made by the same God. Don't do the same to others that you don't like them to do to you.

Nik

Vote

So I did it. I voted. I stood in line for a good 30 seconds. Dead for real. When I went in there was NO line. And I went around 12 something. I felt so proud of myself for refusing to let this moment pass me by. I have friends who JUST realized TODAY how important this is. They tried to register and vote today. I'm not sure of the outcome but hey.... We still have a bunch of hours until 7pm so get ya asses to them polls. If not for you then the people who cant vote. 

Hopefully I will get out my night class earlier enough to see the results. 

Oh yeah I have a offically date for my moving day--->June 21st 2009. Two days after the Mr and I's b-day so you know we going out with a bang! 

Ummm thats it. And Chris I feel you about those teachers! I have teacher who dont even like what she teaching! So how the f'k am I suppose to like it? Bet you wish we still had teachers like Mrs.Worlds huh?!?

I have a headache

So I just dropped my class. My dean offered another drawing class I can take but I'm not sure about taking it. Why? Because it will be one less day I will be available to work. You know what? i'm taking it. My job will understand.

Nik.

School is a bust...

I'm dropping my drawing class. I'm not going to be able to complete the class since I missed 2 classes and midterm is next week. So my dear drawing class.....I will see you in the spring. Now I can stop carrying that heavy ass drawing bag.

Make sure you vote on November 4 or if you aren't a lazy ass like me try to vote early before October 31. Be the change you want to see in this world. Don't sit on your ass and expect something to happen. MAKE something happen!
Honestly I don't care about who you vote for just vote people. Its not a black or white thing. Its about who you think will make the most effective changes that benfits EVERYONE.

I feel like im in between a wall and wall. Everything just seems so bland and boring. Nobody is doing anything. No birthdays. No clubbing. Damn chris its all your fault!

Hey Lily Pad(that's you dewayne)!!(We should do some dance comps!!)

I have been feeling in a really dull mood lately. I just feel like I'm doing the same things over and over. Things at the job are pretty much the same(Except we got new christmas products come check them out!),household is pretty much the same(still needs adjusting), and money is still the same(almost invisble). School has gotten a liitle better its only one problem....I think I picked the wrong major. I love fashion and all and I still want my own clothing line but I have fallen in love with graphic design....Maybe I will wait to switch after I move to chicago.

Guess what I thought about getting?!? Weave. I have not worn weave since my senior year of high school. Something new...What you think?

HaHa Larry Davis gave the po's a run for their money!

Nik

No one of the corner got swagga like us.

So I decided to wear my one and only scarf. Its medium blue with black skulls. Its cute. It keeps making me want more...

Man its fucking cold in the A! Maybe its because its still early in the morning but its still fucking cold. Time to by some boots(I need some flat ones), some mittens, earmuffs and damn socks! I swear I don't own any socks and if I do I don't know where the hell they are.

Oh yeah I need some sneaks. Please donate money to my cold ass feet need sneakers fund. I accept cash,usps money orders,credit cards, food stamps and paypal. No checks. I don't know you like that.

FSF won't like me sign in from my sidekick,

Nik

I'll bust ya windows out ya car

Okay so Im at Lenox Square Mall and its crowded like a mother fucker! All these damn people here trying to see a damn celeb or trying to be seen them damn selves. All there damn girls in these sky high heels, multi-color hair and too little clothes trying to find a "ballers". What trips me out is all there females trying to act like they be in lenox all the time. I work here EVERY weekend and I never see any of yall. I guess I can blame it on the hip hop awards. Whatev. This chick was just standing in front of me and I really wanted to find her some damn clothes to put on. She had a sheer top and some shiny leggings. Okay ladies, leggings can be worn in place of pants. But if you have a Georgia Girl Booty, wear a shirt that at least covers HALF of it. It just makes you look cheap and tacky. Yeah guys are hollering at you but its because you look easy as fuck.

I can admit I saw some really cute fashion statement like this girl's shirt that read "No More BushAss Ness." Saw lots of hot scarves combos and a lot of sexy heels. Time for me to step my fall/winter game up.

My fucking hair is getting on my nerves. I have been trying to go the natural route but fuck that shit. I'm bout to get it permed and two weeks after that, Im getting dyed jet black. Yeah I know I always bitched about my hair being jet black but I think with my "growing up" its hot.

Fuck yo couch,

Nik

My fucking nails bed suck

Oh yeah that no cursing thing went out the wondow. So did that fucking detox.

If this girl next to me don't stop eating them loud ass chips I punching her in her throat.

Thinking of getting my bottom lip pierced. Got a problem with it? Umm tell the ones who cares cause it aint me homie.This woman came in my job and she had the hoop piercing and I talked to her about it. She said I had the face to carry it so...yeah bitches.

I feel like such a fucking lame because I have not bought T.I. Paper Trail. But I did register to vote.
Obama for real change. Last time I looked I don't make 250,000+ so your tax cuts and other McCain don't work me. So yeah homie kick hella rocks. Its only going to get worse before it gets better. Get ready. Fight for your right to vote. To those who didn't register to vote and you had the right to...Don't get mad if the emocomy goes mad because you didn't do the simple thing to make it better. Don't complain about a resscion,gas prices,milk prices, and other shit that man in the white house messed up.

Was anybody else shock about what happened with Danity Kane? I love them and I was crying. I could tell some stuff was going on from pictures of all them out and only 2 will be together. Diddy better get his shit together cause Im not trying to have another Da Band.

Fuck yo couch,
Nik.

Gas is $3.55....

And I'm still not driving. Money Saving-yes. Annoying-hell yeah. Today is a better than the other but not better than the first. Woke up this morning sick(sore thoat,stuffy nose, and massive headache). Feel a little better now. Finally took some meds for it. The doggies are back home(Swag and the other one...). Swag is behaving better but he is still annoying. But so is his co-owner so hey. Maybe tomorrow will be better....

Lately I have been feeling like a sad version of myself. Depressed? Nope. I don't know exactly what to call it. Tired of bullshit? Hell yeah. I feel like the things I want to get better are not. Drained? Of course. I stood there yesterday and cried because I felt like it was nothing else I could do. I felt I was giving up. That's not something I do. But it just felt so right. What do you do then? I can't fix it. So my other half is going to take that load.

I'm tired yall. In the worse way.

Nik.

1:20pm and I'm still in the bed

So the Mr. "put together" the bed last night and I have not been out of it since.(Well except to lock the front door and to pee). I plan on putting on clothes and running(walking/jogging) the trail in my complex.My diet(detox) has been alright. I had a ...nevermind. 1st day of fall classes start today. Yay.

Off to be productive...

Nik

Told ya I will do it...

So I told Brit I will do so...

Fuck Jay.

Nuff Said.

Men running out on their kids New Trend

Seriously is every female under 22 either carrying a bun in the oven or carrying a baby in their arms. There is no disrespect to those who take the blessings GOD gives them. It just kills me sometimes. What also kills me is 98 percent of the time I see them alone. Where the hell is the other half that helped that blessing? Now I will admit. There are men that will hold themselves as men and help nuture and support that seed and the woman that helped carry it. Then there are boys who act like the dogs their sexual counterparts call them. The ones who lay down and do the grown up act then resort to their childlike habits and act like they never want to go up. Do they not realize the effect that causes on the seed? To not grow up with a father? I see it all the times. On the faces of the Baby Mommas who have play mother and father. I see it on the faces of sons who act out because there is no MAN there to teach them to behave and act like a gentleman. I see on the faces on girls who look for love from any guy who will give her the time of day because there was no man to tell her she was beautiful inside and out and she doesn't need a man to make her feel complete. The ones who take their place next the mother, thank you. The others.....Hell has no fury like a woman scored.

Love you too chica.

Nik

Grandma be jammin!

So I was on the train last night and there was this older woma sitting in front of me. Noticed she was listening to a ipod. I thought even older people be jammin. After awhile she turns arounds and heads me her ipod and says "listen to this.". So I put my headphones in and listen...she was jammin! I can't remember now but it was some song by Kanye! Then she says "Grandma be jammin huh?" I'll be damn!

The Mr. and I are planning a huge step in June which is moving to the Chi. Are we ready? Hell no. Anyway he is offically moving back in this weekend. We will see...And he is bringing both of the dogs! (Swag I love but the other one...)

That tattoo on my foot has got to go! That damn star is too big and I want a smaller one. I am thinking about getting the word Love somewhere on me but I'm not sure yet.(Kiss ass Brit)

I wish this chick on this train will stop staring at me. Seriously if her eyes were laser beams, I will be 6feet under.

Oh yeah I only have one more smoke left in my pack. After this one, I'm Done.

I'm not stopping until my team sign their name on that black card. -Lil Kim Last Day

Hey Carla!
Nik

So after 28th I will no longer working two jobs. I'm happy but I'm wondering how things will be without the extra cash...So I got promoted today at my 1st job and a pay raise. Wonderful!

On October 5th 2008, I will be starting my 1st diet. No I won't be starving myself(too lazy for that) but I will be watching what I eat. No more Mickey D unless its fruit or a salad(wait on it).Their fries are fucking addictive. I feel like they are selling me crack! I that's guess why the Mr. calls them "crack fries". Also no Wendys. Seriously their fries are nasty and I am tired of them throwing my damn Baconator together any kind of way. Seriously it does not take that long to make a well together burger. Bitches. Also I will try not to eat after 950pm. Unless Im going out with friends or with the Mr. Or Chris,Flower, Jazs,Brit or I just left the club at 3,4,5,or 6 and we need to sober up.(That includes you too Bee! Bring yo ass!) In addition to my "diet" I will also be working out. Mostly gym work with some dance class thrown in. I.m not trying to lose some serious weight cause I want to perfectly fit into skinny jeans and look good in leggings. Naw I'm doing this for me and because I want to be healthy and tone everything. But that booty ain't going nowhere(You are lucky Mr.). But it will be more toned. Plus I wanna start back running. I guess the Olympics had something to do with it. Gotta get my running skills back up.

Oh yeah Im still smoking but I'm about to quit...sometime soon.

I hear ya calling me Chi. I'm coming.



Nik.

Quote....

Im a educated black woman and their worst nightmare.

Dude you aint slick!

I'm all for women being powerful jobs and playing imporant roles but I just can not pull any love out for Sarah Palin. I mean what kind of woman follows behind a man who does not truly believe in women rights. Doesn't that go against everything you believe in? Or has society brainwashed her like they have done so many? And seriously, Where the hell did she come from? What has she done to prove that she is capable of being second in charge of this country? Mind you if something happens to McCain she will be in charge. Naw I'm good on that. I prefer the state the nation in Obama hands. Try again McCain. The ONLY reason you picked her is because you wanted the females vote and you only did it after realizing that Obama didn't picked Clinton for his VP. Yeah, I been peeped your game.

Nik.

Update on...I guess my life

So I have really that I am lazy as hell. Got a paper due tomorrow plus a poem, need to pay rent and bills and I need to handle stuff with my car. You think I handled any of that? Nope. The sad part is I don't really feel bad....

Oh yeah. I wanna move and yeah i quit my second job. Sue me for wanting to have a normal life for now. And to let you the picture above will be the one after the next tattoo.... Getting the addiction itch again.

Finally cleaned out my black hole of a closet and now I just have to wash clothes and organzie them so I have finally stop having dreams of CoCo Chanel coming to my place and seeing my junky ass closet. Yeah baby, that why I end up kicking you when I'm sleep. That and the fact you are ALWAYS on my damn side(love ya A&F). 

Got a new puppy. Its a boxer mix(mixed with what, I dont damn know). I ended up naming him Swag(I was listening to Swagg by Teyana Taylor when I was thinking of names!Thanks T!). Somebody said I should have named him Tiger since he has stripes on his leg and back. Umm shawty but that's kinda gay and my pup is cooler than that. Yours...Aint!

So school is almost out for the summer classes and I will began fall classes in October. The classes I will be taking...

Drawing

Intro to Design(graphic design)

Intro to Retailing

Math

Wonderful huh? College Girl Fiening To Finish...

I will began working on my book I have been talking to myself about in....Jan 2K9 

I will began working on my clothing line in.....Mar 2K9

I will began my Nik's Diet & Workout....Oct 2K8

I will began my not-so-much-cursing....Oct 2K8

I will began caring about your thoughts,cares, life....Never

Oh yeah Chris....Blue is so right for you....

Nik.

 

So ummm yeah

Updates of my life coming soon....

Oh yeah F*!k what ya heard, Im the woman yo mama told you to grow up to be! 

She wanted to be me...thats so cute! Step ya game chick!

Nik.

21 and Grown? Lesson 1

Lesson 1:I am NOT Superwoman but I am a Super Woman.

I feel like I'm screwing myself. I can't seem to get things on track. Its because I'm trying to do so many things at once. Sitting still for me feels like a punishment. Time spent doing nothing is time wasted in my book. But that has got stop. It's making me go into a frenzy. Im starting to let it take a toll on my mind and body.Im starting to wake up at like 1130 after my class has ended. So now you know how school is going. Its not like I am incapable of doing all of this because I am. Its just everything is coming to a head right now and its becoming overwelming. Basically I have something to prove to myself and others. What that is I'm unsure.Maybe its the fact that I said I want to be retired from working for anyone by the age 30. High Goal? Hell yeah but that's what I want so I guess me pushing my ass at 21 will get me there....

What has to be done?I need to learn how to prioritize things and learn to create some me time. Also I need to learn how to take my ass to sleep at night!

Nik.

21 and Grown:Nik's Evolution

Come walk me. Its going to be a journey but I'm walking. I want to become that woman. Some might join me. Some may fall at the waist. Who knows, I might be walking with just me and GOD. We will see.
The 1st thing I have to do is be real with myself.
So Nik,get ready. Its on.

Oh yeah for "that girl": If you think you can do me, you out yo monkey ass mind. Get ya weight up.(Had to.Now I can close that chapter)

Nik.

Yeah I'm Hurting But....

I was BUILT TO LAST!

Life is A Bitch Depending On How You Dress Her...

Today was hard! My life with Mr. is hard right now. But I was built to last.

Enough Said

Nik.

Are we destined to fail?

Why spend money on weed when your lights are off?

Our generation trips me out sometimes. I have just been thinking about the things we do and why we do them. Thinking about myself and my friends, I realize we make the dumbest choices. I know people who will spend their last dime of some damn weed and let their phone get cut off. Will spend money on a bunch of clothes and won't pay their bills. Will spend a check they just got on the club but won't put that money up for a rainy day. I can't really talk because I have the same(not the weed thing) thing but I can be the voice. Our generation is being set up to fail all the time and we keep falling in the traps. Maybe not everywhere but its like that in my surroundings. I know people say why save money if you can't die with it. Well you don't know when you are going to die so why be broke while you are here? Are those rims on you car more important than that college loan you paying? I guess I get mad about it cause I am guilty of doing it as well so after looking at it from another point view I really feel stupid! So I decided I am going to be better with my money...

-Take 10%-15% out of every check.
-Put away money for a retirement fund.(plan on retiring at age 35)
-Pay all bills 1st before buying other things.
-Save up for things (Trip,house etc.)

Hell its a start....

Nik.

My Life Is Based On A True Story

So lately I have been going through somethings both good and bad. I am 21 now so I need to be making bigger and better moves. I took the first step and went to school. While I was sitting in my english class today, I gained back my passion for writing. When i started this blog I started as something to do from time to time. As I look back at my older posts,I noticed I had something to say but didn't know how to. Then I realized that this is my damn blog! I can say whatever I want to say how I want to say it!  I am a young african american female with a lot of views and thoughts so of course I have a lot to say! I guess I was worried about what people would say but honestly I don't care. If I lived my life based off what people thought me I would be in deep depression. But Im not. I love who I am and what I am becoming. I have changed so much it is crazy! But we all have to go though changes. Its oh so needed. So please expect more blogging from me. This is my way of telling my story. I don't expect everybody to agree with everything I say but it not meant to please everyone else. Its just my life. The truth and the whole truth and nothing but.

I also have to say. Chica I love you just like you are my sister and its hurting me to see you going through this. Dont let someone knock you down and keep you down. If he is not going to be here then say whatever and keep it moving. Life is so unpredictable so dont waste you time dwelling on something that's so not worth your energy and time. You are hella better than that. I know you are cause you are my chica and I pick them very wisely. I dont kick it with girls that are negative,not worth my time and not doing anything for themselves(maybe just one but you know how that is!). So please don't fall back. Let this be your drive to bigger and better things. Remember we are cooler than the other side of the pillow and tighter than tight. Love you!

Join on the ride called life....

Nik.

School Time-Nik a College Girl now!

Okay kiddos, so I start school on monday I'm super excited! My 1st on monday is a 8am English class. If you know anything about me then you its hard me to get up in the morning...unless its for something I really want to do....

So I will be there bright and early!

Nik.

Yea.

Defeat only makes me stronger.

Nik.

Guess what I did?...

I took the 1st 3 tests of the GED today. Yep me. Say what you wanna but im out to get mine. Its just one extra step I have to take to be on my road to success. I figured you should hear it from my mouth. That's the only one that matter on here right? The 1st 3 were kinda easy the only one im really worried about is the math which I take on wednesday. Some may ask if I am worried about my friends finding out. Nope. My true friend will be happy that I am doing this. My so called friends will talk about me, laugh not care. I rather not have them in my life anyway.

.Nik.

21 snitches!

Photos and details coming...whenever.
Thanks christa and steel for the gifts!
.Nik.

You know those people you see on the side of the highway? The ones with the car is fucked like crazy? Today I was one of those people. I got into a bad wreck and totaled my impala. I hit the wall on the expressway. So right now I am without car but that does not matter to me. I still have my life. God and my angel(my dad) had their arms wrapped around me and I walked with bruises only. Me and mom have gotten closer because of this. When I went to see her to let her know I was okay. She hugged me and I cried like a baby. I was upset,sad and hurt and all that came out. I remember saying to her that I thought I was going to die when I hit the wall. That's was the 1st time in years that I was like that with my mom. And it should not be like that. I really realized that my mom cares about me and my safety. I love her for that.

It made me realize that life can be taken away from you at any moment so you gotta enjoy what you have and love the ones with you.I love you all with all my heart and more.

.Nik.

The Freedom Of It

I'm coming back

.Nik.

History has been made!

Change is Coming...

.Nik.

Yeah, I say what I wanna.

Have you ever felt like you were holding in too much and your body was going to explode? That how my 5'0 130 pound body feels right now. I feel like I can never say whatever I want all the time. I hold somethings in to protect my family and friends feelings. But sometimes I think somethings should be said.

I talked to a friend and I felt like it was neccessary that I told him about how I felt about his situation and all he did was laugh. I don't even think he took what I said seriously. But in reality he should because nobody else will. But I will never force anybody to take my advice. It a take it or leave it situation. Once its out my mouth I no longer care.

I have decided today that whatever is on my mind I will say it. That does not mean I will a asshole about but it means that I won't let it build up inside me. That cause stress and stress can cause health problems. No sir, I don't think so.

.Nik.

Late Night Thoughts

So the Mr. & I decided to spend the day together. Funny,right? Its funny because me and him are always busy doing other time that we forget that we need to spend a day with just us. We talked about the "big move". Yeah its a big move for both of us. We also talked about the name I came up with my company. We also slept from 6pm till 11pm. I think we are good now....

.Nik.

Turning the page

I realized something. I am proud as hell at the woman staring back at me in the mirror. I have come a long way from that spoiled girl. I stepped out on faith and chose to be out on my own. I have been through some setbacks and through some crazy ass highs. After thinking about all of it all I can do is smile. Im about to walk into another chapter in my life and I cant wait to see what life has in store me. If HE has my back then I'll be good.

Another falls back...

I mean damn buckeey really? I actually liked you on charm school and here you go a f' up my 2 percent like. I guess what they say must be true. And raw buckeey? I guess AIDS, STD or just maybe a baby never came to mind. Yeah he played you...

* For those who dont know what im talking about, Im talking about the buckeey sex tape that is going around. Its clear ass day. If somebody can seriously prove that thats not her I will take my words back. And naw im not puttin the video up.

.Nik.

To the Mr.

"Would you love me if I didn't workout or I didn't change my natural hair? And could I be the one you want to grow older with baby? I'll give you all that I got"

Thanks for proving that you will!

.Nik.

Just letting go. I understand now key!

Sometimes its like that

.Nik.

So I woke up this morning and realized 3 things: 1. The rent is due 2. My check from Trs is in my bank account 3. Its May 1st. Meaning next month I will be turning 21. Meaning I need to do some inner house cleaning...

-Get rid of people who are not postive, not supportive of me, my dreams, and goals, and not doing anything with their lives.

-Spend time with family, friends and myself.

- Laugh More, Smile More and try to understand more.

-Realize that I am not superwoman and that is fine.

-Stop letting my life get so cluttered

-Learn to say please and thank you more

-Stop being afraid to say I love you

-Learn that the past is gone...

-Realize that I cant change everything and everyone

Got more but I tired...

.Nik.

Birthday Shout Outs!! Love you girls!!!

I meant to do this the other day but I so forgot so...

Happy 21st Birthday Christa(April 17th)
I love you man like my own sister! We got hella years together and hella more together! Hope you enjoyed your birthday! Love Ya

Happy 21st Birthday Towanda(April 18th)
You will always be my chica! I miss you and you already know we gotta get back close! Hope your 21st was a great as you!! Love ya!

.Nik.

Earth Day!!!

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Today is Earth Day and I have decided that I will start doing my green part!
So here are the small changes I will be making...

1-Recycle my plastic, metal and other recycleables(sp?)
2-If I can walk to it, I will. I have gotten lazy and have been driving my car to my apartment mailbox! That will save gas and help tone my legs for the summer.
3- I will start eating at home. That will cut down on gas driving to and from the fast food places and cut down on my trash.
4. If I have to get a plastic bag, I will reuse it for something else.

Its baby steps but its baby steps that turn in into adult walks! So corny I know!

.Nik.

Divorce Court

Okay so im at my hair salon watching divorce court. Its a woman on there who is in court with her ex husband. They are in court because he wants his game system and sneaks they she bought for him and took back. Now the whole story was she was basically taking care him. He was a spolied ass brat. When she bought stuff for her kids (she had 4) she had to buy him something too. He had no job and wasn't trying to get one. Then this negro had the nerve to cheat. See this is why black women go crazy. She gave this fool all this stuff. Since he was not working(strike number 1) he could have least had the house cleaned and food cooked for when she came home. He is one of those "men" who feel like doing stuff like that is beneath him. Then he tries to say that his reason behind dog cheating(strike number 2) ways is because he had a "feeling" about her ex. WTF?!? Then the negro wasn't even cute!!(strike number 3 negro you out!)

.Nik.

Im on my way!

Okay so I have finally decided to go to school yall. Since 2005 I have been working and have been thinking about going to school but never pushed myself. Until now. I am going to school for fashion design. I have the street sense of fashion but now I want the book sense of it. Im not going to a traditional(sp?) college which is how I want it. I don't want to say the school cause I don't want to jinx it. Kita bout to be a college girl!

My skin

"Your skin so pretty." "Kita, your skin is glowing!" Those were the comments given to me today at work making me smile. Why is this important to me? Well I use to hate skin. I hated being dark skin. It took years for me to love my skin. I work hard on my skin. So comments like that put me on a natural high....

Rainy in the A/ News on clothing line

This rain has me in a foul mood. Normally I love the rain. It calms me and sometimes put me in a lovey dovey mood. But today is not the case. I won't go into details but I have been annoyed all damn day. Work, traffic(sat in traffic for 35 mins), boyfriend and friends. Some good came out of the rain today though. I cleaned up my apartment(been meaning to that for a day or so), washed my hair(and realized I need a damn perm, I haven't had one in months been doing the natural route), did a foot mask, a facial mask and painted my nails. So I guess the rain is not so bad...

I will be putting out my t-shirts this summer!! I will start putting them out in june. I will be hitting up fashion shows, events and everywhere promoting my line! So look for it soon!

My Home

Okay I know when I talk you can't tell, but I have atlanta blood in my veins. (Leave it to Steel, I sound like New-New). I'm atlanta all the way. From my walk, my swag, my style, and my hustle. Atlanta is where my heart is. I always thought about moving to the Chi but its nothing like my city. "Forever I Love Atlanta"

Teyana Taylor Google Me/Beauty Blog

This song is crazy dope! I remember watching her on MTV's Sweet Sixteen and the girl is cool. So I'm doing my part by making this girl, this song and this video known!

Anyways so I have been thinking about creating another blog. It will be a "urban" beauty blog for the beautyheads(I made that word so stop bitin) all around.
What's a beautyhead?
Long story short-a person who is addicted to beauty. So be on the look out for it!

She is Me and Me is She

Classic Urban Beauty you ask?

Its a mixture of the vintage era mixed in with the new school era. Both eras joining together and forming inside of me. Which brings Classic Urban Beauty.

Who are you?
I am the creator of this expressive no holds barred blog. I am a young, old hustler with Louis 13 dreams and Patron money. My style mixes a Louis bag with Nikes. Chanel shades with Levi jeans. Wear what I please and do as I say. I curse like a sailor, burp when it comes up, sleep until 2 and I refuse to say sorry for it. A sinner who wont throw stones. I plan to take the fashion world by storm. Write that in stone cause I mean it. A sidekick chick who might get buried with her phone. I got my own place, my own car, 2 jobs. I'm bad.

What is this blog about?
Me. My feelings, my thoughts, my ideas, my photos, my friends, things that catch my eye. A place other than my home where I can say whatever I want.