Nikita vs. Nik

Life has a way of throwing you a curve ball, yeah I know this. But does life have the pitching machine set on 20 a day? I have been fighting myself for the past couple of days. I have been fighting myself on what I know I should do and what I want to do. I have been playing myself for the last couple of months. I have not been facing the woman in the mirror. I have been avoiding her like a plague. I know if I confront her she will break me down like a baby. She will reveal all of the thoughts I have been keeping in my hush box. She will show me that I have not been loving me right. That's woman is bad. Sorry Beyonce but she more than a diva. She's been put on the back burner and I know she is mad.